Last Weekend was a nightmare..something that i would've imagine is happen. She is asking me to let go..and this time..my feelings said that I've already lost her.
My Dear Alesha, you are my home...how can i call you "my home" again after this?you said there's nothing gonna change...well you know what..it is change...there's no more "i love you's" in bed..there is no kiss...there is no touch...and surely there is no Us again in this relationship..
I am devastated..i am broken...i am bleeding to death inside,i don't know how to get through day by day without having you...Kita saling kecewa...aku kecewa...kamu kecewa...tapi seharusnya kita bisa mencobanya lagi...There is no limit of time in learning something...Manusia tidak sempurna, dan manusia pun selalu berkeinginan untuk belajar terus...dan terus sampai pada akhir hayat nya.
Begitu juga aku yang terus belajar dari hubungan kita ini..jadi rasanya tak adil buat ku ketika kamu ingin menyerah dan stop belajar, tapi sekali lagi aku tekankan tidak ada aku..tidak ada kamu..yang ada hanya lah kita dalam hubungan ini...Meski rasanya tak adil, aku masih ingin mencoba...karena ini bukan semata mata karena rasa adil atau tak adil lagi...
Mungkin kamu rasa aku tak pantas untuk di beri kesempatan karena aku begitu mengecewakan kamu...tapi sekali lagi...itu bukan alasan untuk berhenti mencoba lagi..Kalau memang kamu masih mencintai aku seperti yang kamu bilang...then lets try again...lets learn again...lets fight again..
Almost 5 Years of togetherness, lots of efforts for this relationship, remember all the good years we had before...to balance the bad months we had...
I'm still here..waiting for you..and trying my best to change myself to be a better person...and its not because of you...its because i want to...please come back, don't let go....
I love you...always...
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